The one you think that may have gotten away

I was listening to Matchbox Twenty on Pandora radio when I wrote this, so if you'd like to get in the same kinda mood I am in then turn it on! Maybe it'll make the material hit home a little more.

Just earlier today I watching a movie called "Moms' Night Out". I'd say it's worth a watch, I mean was it a chick-flick? Absolutely. But you'll soon find out that I enjoy a decent chick-flick every once in a while. Men can honestly learn a lot about women through chick-flicks. It was made by women for women, so why not watch it, take a few notes on the ol' legal pad (just a joke) and see what women want and what they like? Just my personal take on the matter, that's all (plus it had the same actor that was Samwise Gamgee from Lord of the Rings, so it was a win-win cause that guy's the man).

ANYWAY while I was watching it I noticed that the main character was a women that reminded me a lot of my ex-girlfriend. This girl did a number on me; she was beautiful, a subtle beauty  just like the main character in the movie I mentioned above. Now I'm not gonna get all sappy on you but I should mention that I loved her, and still do. From the first day I met her I thought that we would be together for a very long time, and I could see her as the mother of my children. She had all the motherly and "wifely" qualities that someone should look for,. I was afraid that once she dumped me I would never find another like her.

But you know what, I can't just walk around day in and day out sad and depressed because one girl didn't value me as much as I valued her. You gotta learn to move on. I'm not saying I hate this girl, cause although she cheated on me I definitely don't hate her; but eventually I woke up and said, "Stew, if she loved you like you love her, then she wouldn't have screwed the pooch in your relationship."

If you're going through a hard time after a break up I want you to remember that relationships are two lane roads. It takes effort from both parties including him or her, and you can't be the only one putting fourth effort. Go out with the guys and hit the bars! I'm not telling you to be a creep and hit on every girl with ten toes but I am telling you to get up and surround yourself with good friends and good times. If you're my age (19 or 20ish)  then these are the best times of your life!  Go enjoy them!

At this stage in your life (early 20s) you shouldn't have to work very hard to make a relationship "stay a-float". It should be fun and exciting and you should be trying to figure out what you like and don't like. Sure I daydream about this girl "focusin' up" and coming back to me but at the end of the day this isn't the most likely scenario. There truly are a lot of fish in the sea, and now I'm taking this time to focus on myself and my hobbies and my flaws that I'd like to improve. I'm sure that when the time is right another lovely lady will put in as much effort as I do towards getting to know me and I can give it all another shot again.

Focus on yourself for a minute. Read a book and for God's sake go play some golf! If she (or he, sorry to not focus so much on the lady readers, I'll try and get better at that) was meant to be with you then he/she will be. If you two were meant to share another sunset or eat another meal out then it will happen. So don't get bogged up on one that wasn't right for you, because you might miss out on the one that is.

Intro

Well, welcome to my blog.
To be honest, I have no idea what I'm doing here but I figure I'll go ahead and start by introducing you to myself and the main focus of this blog.

My name is Stewart, and I'm 19 years old. At this point in my life I'm a bit lost, kinda confused about what lies ahead and how to move forward in the right direction. What is my right direction, you know? What should my major be and where should I go to school? What's my purpose right now and what do I need to be doing to stay "on track"?

I'm a pretty short guy around 5'7", but I think I'm actually going through a bit of a growth spurt as we speak! Which is pretty exciting, and if you're short I'm sure you can agree that any growth spurt is about as exciting as getting a grape loli-pop after a doctors appointment (yes, my favorite flavor is grape). I like to drink some beers with my friends and I like to play golf; I also love to watch movies and I enjoy interacting with people, whether I like them or not.

I think a lot and I think a lot about diverse things. So if you're down for a glimpse through my eyes of a side-winding adventure filled with movie quotes, funny moments, and complicated thought arrangements then grab a Double Gulp and buckle your seat belt, cause although I can't guarantee it will be funny or interesting for you, I can guarantee that there will be a lot of words on a page that might spit out something that you could use to help you through your own adventure.